Homesick

Today I am really homesick.  I don't know why today, but I just really want to be with my family right now.  It is really hard living in Tennessee away from my family.  There are many days I am fine being here, but there are many times I miss home.

I am sad for my family that they can't be with Kayleigh all the time and see all the little things she does.  I so badly want them to be just as much as a part of her life as Jeremy and I are.  I want to be with them, to have their support daily and to have them so Jeremy and I can go on a date while they keep her.  It would be nice to hang out with my mom on my days off like so many of my friends do.  I would just like to sit at her house with her and watch Kayleigh play or go to the park with her while Kayleigh swings.

I know we would do a lot of things with my family if we lived near them and its just really hard because I want to be apart of all the things they do together.  I miss family time, especially since my family is so close and do so many things together.  My parents would have us over for dinner, have us over for birthdays and each holiday.  They always make everything so special.  

When we skype Kayleigh smiles and laughs at them and I know it breaks all of their heart to not be with her in person.  It breaks my heart too.  I know they support Jeremy and I living in Tennessee, but I also know they miss us so much too.

Having Kayleigh means we are starting our own family, our own traditions, but I want my family to be apart of our traditions.  Growing up we spent so much time with my cousins, aunts and uncles making family time so fun and I want that for Kayleigh.  I want her to enjoy family time and to have fun with Nana, Papa, Uncle Kyle, Uncle Lance, Uncle Mark and our other extended family.  We will be home in the beginning of July, which time will fly!!